I have a project called Tom Hank. It’s noise pop/shoegaze band. This is me screwing around with iconography for the band.

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Who am I kidding? I’m still scare of putting myself out there on the internet. I know it’s unreasonable. I do a lot of that kind of stuff. Stuff of the unreasonable nature. The ideas seem bigger than me and that’s because they are. Since I tend to treat them that way, I don’t want to drunkly stumble into them. Not sure why I treat them as if they are fragile and precious. Maybe because I was taught that ideas can change the world. You would think at my age I would realize that is not the full picture. But here I am, posting more reasons why I haven’t taken up writing in a public forum.

I have been avoiding writing posts for my personal site that I set up for myself back in 2015 because I was afraid. That same fear will likely show up here. I feel that I currently leave a lot to be desire in my writing. I also run into a lot of challenges with communicating and organizing my thoughts due to struggles with ADHD. “Really interesting ideas, but needs better organization” was the statement made about 99.9% of my papers in college. I would often give up before I ever started. This fear of failure has consistently plagued all my creative endeavors despite how much I enjoy getting lost in the process. My perfectionism made the process unbearable and procrastination took root.